reformation

Being changed hurts.
I am most surely leaving a season in my life behind. With great excitement and fire, and also with much reluctance and questioning. Why is it that all the things God asked me to do 6 months ago, are now the things he is asking me to set aside? That is so frustrating.
But I do fully trust that he has an adventure planned for the next few years of my life, full of joy, heartache, truth, and revelations.

Have you ever been so sure or on fire to do something, but yet felt SO short when it comes to accomplishing any part of the test? I know that in this way we who answer yes are in good company. Moses truly comes to mind when I think of not only being faced with a difficult charge, but also the manner of response. I keep telling God how utterly confused I am about the things He has asked me to do. haha. But alas, El Elyon (wink), certainly in a very royal way just replies "stop wandering and just do this". I feel that the one with certain, complete, and divine right over my future is not someone I can say "no" to.
But as many of you know, my hands are commanded by my head, which is attached to my mouth, and therefore I am the sort of person who is almost incapable of doing without saying. Sometimes complaining, sometimes praising.

"Lord, please bless my friends. Please open doors. Thank you for thinking well enough of me to ask me to do anything that may give you glory, and for continuing to provide the means to go forward. Bless my family, and all the ways each of us is growing and changing. Please continue to bring the needy closer to you. Take pity on those who feel they are running out of hope. Grant me strength and resourcefulness. Amen."

No- I am not back online. You still have to call me the old fashioned way.
yes- homeschooling is going well, I think
yes- i still have a cold which I believe has progressed to "infection"
Miss and love you guys!

Why you won't see me for a while

My computer is broken. We somehow got a terrible virus and decided to scrap it. So if you need to get a hold of my you'll have to call or text.

This situation seems to be a direct answer to prayer. This past week I have been having some health problems involing fatigue and other symptoms. I also found out, finally, that we will be eligable to transfer full benefits from Bryan's GI bill into my name. Which means I have re applied to Pierce and shold be starting school in March. ALSO, after a draining week back to school and all the emotional issues Aiden has been having... we submitted our waiver to homeschool and have taken him out of public school... for now.

During my quiet time the other morning I was begging God to help me refocus so that I could be more productive, start dealing with my health issues, and help Aiden with his needs. Then my computer broke. Message recieved.

should not be wearing that

Usually, when it comes to getting in shape I like to just throw myself in full force. Everything all at one.

This week I am planning something a little different.
So it's true for me as it is for many those holiday pounds are oozing out around the top of my jeans. Nothing fits right and the the weight is likely the reason for several other "ailments" right now. Something must be done.

Bryan has taken the next week off and we are planning a little mini vacation next weekend for our 8th anniversary. So, I have been worried about the idea or "dieting" this week, or setting the standard too high considering this won't be a normal week.
So I deiced for once I will take the proverbial "baby steps".
This week I plan, and Bryan has been informed, to do my workout (Shred), Monday through Friday. I will make healthy meals but I refuse to guilt myself. When Bryan is home it is SO much harder to say no to the snacks. So, for now I will get my tushie into gear and devise a more long term approach for everything else.

To go along with this subject I have been thinking about a few other things. You know how sometimes in life one thing effects another? For example: I do my bible study, and then I feel like working out, and in turn I want to spend more time doing one on one things with the kids with out everyone yelling and ending up in their rooms. This is kind of my second goal for the week. It's sort of hard to articulate what I mean, except to say that I am working on getting "re-centered", if you will. Part of making a plan and facing a long term challenge is the way it changes the way you see all the other things around you. I just got a new day planner for the year and every time I have to write something in I try to figure out if it is helping or hurting my over all plan. For now, the things that are not helping are being dealt with temporarily, but are being put on a "discard" list. Weeding out the excess. Bringing the focus back where it should be and moving forward.

So, anyway, that was more rambling than I indented. To all my friends who are interested in this buddy system, I recommend you check out Missy's new blog, http://gethealthy4god.blogspot.com/ . I'm working on setting up a "kick off" party VERY soon. I have some really fun ideas about that. More info coming very very soon (like probably tomorrow).