I did so much complaining this past week, now I have to turn around and give some praise. God has answered my prayers and met all of my needs this week. Sometimes things don't work that way, and there is more waiting involved, but not this time.
I have a new phone.
I have NEW TIRES on my truck (an early Christmas gift from mom and dad)
Lucy is head down, stuck and making me very uncomfortable (in a good way)
Bryan is coming home tomorrow morning...
and a bonus I received a Babies R Us Gift card from a friend at church so I can go do something fun today. I think Jamba Juice will also be involved.
I was also lucky enough to hang out with Jessica and Keeley yesterday. Now I really need my baby. She reminded me of what I'm waiting for. During the last weeks of pregnancy it's easy for the focus to become about "labor" and "me". It's hormones I'm sure.
Is it snowing right now? I haven't even looked outside. I have been trying to ignore the weather reports. I lived in Buffalo for 4 years, I could do with out snow. Really. But in my history of child baring I think there was only one baby who wasn't born with snow on the ground, so...
Yes, my contractions are getting worse. I am really hoping Finley is going to strip the membranes at my appointment on Monday, given that she is actually head down for once, and theses contractions are getting a little obnoxious. I had them ALL day yesterday. They either stop when I'm sleeping or they aren't enough to wake me. I double checked to make sure I have everything ready for the hospital. I am pretty experienced in packing a hospital bag. I haven't packed Bry's yet though. I will tomorrow. I always put in snacks and comfy clothes for him too (and usually a surprise or two)
"Lord thank you for helping me to recognize all the ways I am blessed. Life is full of bad days and unexpected problems. I will always try to focus on you and how you have already saved me. There are probably many things you have spared me from that I never even knew. Thank you for helping my to see what I have and not what I don't. Amen."
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Ask and you shall recieve...
when what you want is God's will.
So I told you yesterday that I am going to tell you something about my bible study group at Bethany today. It's kind of a secret, they already know part of it, but I'm going to tell the rest because it's pretty cool.
I also want to mention that I woke up this morning and Lucy is heads down toward the exit sign. So let's pray she stays that way. (thank you all those who were praying for me last night)
So as you may know I was REALLY sick over the summer. By the time August rolled around I couldn't wait for bible study, MOPS and all the other school year activities to begin. I was desperate.
At our bible study we have small discussion groups we keep for the whole year. We don't choose them, we are assigned to a group with the exception of one buddy (I chose my mom). So I began praying for my future bible study group through the end of the summer. While I was doing this God placed on my heart to pray for 4 specific people. All 4 were either acquaintances or people I knew of but had not really met before. I'm going to tell you about each one and what I prayed for them"
Brook P.: Brook was a mentor mom at MOPS the past two years in a row. I knew that for a time she went to Valley Bible Church (my home church in Sumner I grew up in) and that her son was the youth leader at Bethany for a while when my brother first started going there. Brook is hilarious. I also had a hunch that she is a very Godly lady and has a lot of wisdom to share. I was sad when I knew she was no longer going to be a mentor mom, because I had been kinda hoping she might end up my mentor mom. I didn't know her at all, but you can always tell when she's in the room. So I switched to praying that she would be attending bible study and that maybe she would end up in my group.
Sarah G.: Last year in MOPS leadership we played secret sister for the whole year, Sarah was my secret sister and I spent the whole year trying to figure out what little gifts to leave her and trying not to make eye contact (I was sure she was going to know it was me) Before the secret sister game started I didn't know who Sarah was. So I really spent the whole MOPS year praying for someone I didn't really know anything about. So when the MOPS year ended and I wasn't trying to be sneaky anymore I realized I still didn't' know anything about her because I spent the whole year hiding, sure that she had some kind of telepathy or x-ray vision. So over the summer I started praying that during the upcoming year she would end up somehow in my social circle so that I could find our more about the person who I had been praying for.
Erin B.: Last year when I was a table leader in MOPS I prayed for all the girls at my table. They were all special and lovely. However the only person God was really pressing on me to pray for during the summer after MOPS was over was over was Erin. I didn't include her whole name, and I think most of the story is common knowledge, so I will share some details of what I had been praying for. Erin and her husband have an adorable little boy. They were hoping to have another baby, but were not able to get pregnant. I remember when she mentioned they weren't going to try anymore and I went home and cried because on some level I knew what empty arms feel like. So I only prayed harder. When MOPS was over I prayed also that God would somehow keep her in my social circle so that I could be there when my prayers were answered (haha).
Christy: I saw Christy when I visited a Sunday School class over the summer.I can't tell you why I prayed for her. I guess God just kept whispering her name in my ear ???
So, the point of this is, all these ladies "randomly" ended up in my small group. Brook also brought her daughter in law Racheal along, so I was doubly blessed with having Brook and a new friend to keep for myself.
Sarah also now my MOPS table leader, she couldn't get away from my if she wanted to. I like everything about her, her hair, her voice, and she may be THE craftiest lady I've ever met.
God blessed me so deeply with my diligence in praying for Erin. I had the privilege of being at the table the day she announced that she is expecting. No one, not even Erin, knew I had been praying for the baby God was going to give her. So I'm sure my emotional response was surprising to everyone, but I was speechless and SO elated. And Christy is still a mystery. I still don't know her. I know that she is quiet, and seems like a really tired mommy. She is often not there. So I'll just keep praying and waiting on that one :)
So always ask.
"Thank you, Lord, for my bible study group. Thank you for the blessing and joy you have provided me through them. Please bless them in return. Amen."
So I told you yesterday that I am going to tell you something about my bible study group at Bethany today. It's kind of a secret, they already know part of it, but I'm going to tell the rest because it's pretty cool.
I also want to mention that I woke up this morning and Lucy is heads down toward the exit sign. So let's pray she stays that way. (thank you all those who were praying for me last night)
So as you may know I was REALLY sick over the summer. By the time August rolled around I couldn't wait for bible study, MOPS and all the other school year activities to begin. I was desperate.
At our bible study we have small discussion groups we keep for the whole year. We don't choose them, we are assigned to a group with the exception of one buddy (I chose my mom). So I began praying for my future bible study group through the end of the summer. While I was doing this God placed on my heart to pray for 4 specific people. All 4 were either acquaintances or people I knew of but had not really met before. I'm going to tell you about each one and what I prayed for them"
Brook P.: Brook was a mentor mom at MOPS the past two years in a row. I knew that for a time she went to Valley Bible Church (my home church in Sumner I grew up in) and that her son was the youth leader at Bethany for a while when my brother first started going there. Brook is hilarious. I also had a hunch that she is a very Godly lady and has a lot of wisdom to share. I was sad when I knew she was no longer going to be a mentor mom, because I had been kinda hoping she might end up my mentor mom. I didn't know her at all, but you can always tell when she's in the room. So I switched to praying that she would be attending bible study and that maybe she would end up in my group.
Sarah G.: Last year in MOPS leadership we played secret sister for the whole year, Sarah was my secret sister and I spent the whole year trying to figure out what little gifts to leave her and trying not to make eye contact (I was sure she was going to know it was me) Before the secret sister game started I didn't know who Sarah was. So I really spent the whole MOPS year praying for someone I didn't really know anything about. So when the MOPS year ended and I wasn't trying to be sneaky anymore I realized I still didn't' know anything about her because I spent the whole year hiding, sure that she had some kind of telepathy or x-ray vision. So over the summer I started praying that during the upcoming year she would end up somehow in my social circle so that I could find our more about the person who I had been praying for.
Erin B.: Last year when I was a table leader in MOPS I prayed for all the girls at my table. They were all special and lovely. However the only person God was really pressing on me to pray for during the summer after MOPS was over was over was Erin. I didn't include her whole name, and I think most of the story is common knowledge, so I will share some details of what I had been praying for. Erin and her husband have an adorable little boy. They were hoping to have another baby, but were not able to get pregnant. I remember when she mentioned they weren't going to try anymore and I went home and cried because on some level I knew what empty arms feel like. So I only prayed harder. When MOPS was over I prayed also that God would somehow keep her in my social circle so that I could be there when my prayers were answered (haha).
Christy: I saw Christy when I visited a Sunday School class over the summer.I can't tell you why I prayed for her. I guess God just kept whispering her name in my ear ???
So, the point of this is, all these ladies "randomly" ended up in my small group. Brook also brought her daughter in law Racheal along, so I was doubly blessed with having Brook and a new friend to keep for myself.
Sarah also now my MOPS table leader, she couldn't get away from my if she wanted to. I like everything about her, her hair, her voice, and she may be THE craftiest lady I've ever met.
God blessed me so deeply with my diligence in praying for Erin. I had the privilege of being at the table the day she announced that she is expecting. No one, not even Erin, knew I had been praying for the baby God was going to give her. So I'm sure my emotional response was surprising to everyone, but I was speechless and SO elated. And Christy is still a mystery. I still don't know her. I know that she is quiet, and seems like a really tired mommy. She is often not there. So I'll just keep praying and waiting on that one :)
So always ask.
"Thank you, Lord, for my bible study group. Thank you for the blessing and joy you have provided me through them. Please bless them in return. Amen."
Monday, December 8, 2008
T.G.I... Monday? **PLUS UPDATE (NEW)
My hunch was right. (Dr)Finley used the ultrasound to discover... she's TRANSVERSE. And most of you probably know you CAN NOT deliver a transverse baby vaginally. I go back first thing next Monday to see if she is still in this position. If so Finley is going to try to turn her manually. If that doesn't work it's a C for me, asap. Lovely.
Then I went to get a patch on my tire... yeah that didn't go so well either. Tire was not replaceable. They put on my spare (which happens to be a full size tire) but when Bryan gets home we're going to have to fork out the money for all new tires. (please see the post where I vented about money, etc. last month)
"TAH-DAH!!!!"
Wow... what a weekend.
First my phone broke.
Then I got a flat tire (but made it home safely)
Then I spent some time really angry at a certain lazy member of my family that needed to make a phone call for me to get a new phone... and just couldn't seem to do it or answer when I call (but answers when Bryan calls). So still NO PHONE.
Then I woke up from a much needed nap to find Lucy lying transverse. She has since moved but I'm not sure if she's heads or tails.
On top of my stress Aiden was really nuts, and I can usually coach him to make good decisions and stay on track, but I just couldn't. It was so frustrating.
Then because of the flat tire I couldn't drive my truck to my MOPS table Christmas cookie get together. So I called Sylvia to tell her I wasn't going to make it, "well that's too bad because I made a cake for you and we put together a goodie basket in honor of you baby." Oh my goodness, I felt HORRIBLE. So I was able to borrow Cindy's (my mother in law) car and make it over to Sylvia's. I was very glad I went because I really love hanging out with the girls from my MOPS table. They are all so sweet, interesting, and talented.
I know it's crazy, but I'm really glad it's Monday. Aiden has a full day of school to go get the social time, stimulation and energy that he needs (with out sucking my will to live). I have a Dr appointment, and hopefully Lucy is really head down now. I am also looking forward to being checked. I have been having lots of little contractions that come and go. I am hoping for just a little progress. I had this with Aiden and Nolan, they were both about a week early.
After the Dr my mom is following me to go get my tire fixed. And hopefully I will be able to go get a new phone today.
This, again, was more of a rant than a real blog post. I actually have something much more interesting to write about tomorrow.
"Lord, please help me to RELAX. Today is a new day. I pray that you would open doors today and help me to accomplish what I need to accomplish, and let go of what I don't. Amen."
Then I went to get a patch on my tire... yeah that didn't go so well either. Tire was not replaceable. They put on my spare (which happens to be a full size tire) but when Bryan gets home we're going to have to fork out the money for all new tires. (please see the post where I vented about money, etc. last month)
"TAH-DAH!!!!"
Wow... what a weekend.
First my phone broke.
Then I got a flat tire (but made it home safely)
Then I spent some time really angry at a certain lazy member of my family that needed to make a phone call for me to get a new phone... and just couldn't seem to do it or answer when I call (but answers when Bryan calls). So still NO PHONE.
Then I woke up from a much needed nap to find Lucy lying transverse. She has since moved but I'm not sure if she's heads or tails.
On top of my stress Aiden was really nuts, and I can usually coach him to make good decisions and stay on track, but I just couldn't. It was so frustrating.
Then because of the flat tire I couldn't drive my truck to my MOPS table Christmas cookie get together. So I called Sylvia to tell her I wasn't going to make it, "well that's too bad because I made a cake for you and we put together a goodie basket in honor of you baby." Oh my goodness, I felt HORRIBLE. So I was able to borrow Cindy's (my mother in law) car and make it over to Sylvia's. I was very glad I went because I really love hanging out with the girls from my MOPS table. They are all so sweet, interesting, and talented.
I know it's crazy, but I'm really glad it's Monday. Aiden has a full day of school to go get the social time, stimulation and energy that he needs (with out sucking my will to live). I have a Dr appointment, and hopefully Lucy is really head down now. I am also looking forward to being checked. I have been having lots of little contractions that come and go. I am hoping for just a little progress. I had this with Aiden and Nolan, they were both about a week early.
After the Dr my mom is following me to go get my tire fixed. And hopefully I will be able to go get a new phone today.
This, again, was more of a rant than a real blog post. I actually have something much more interesting to write about tomorrow.
"Lord, please help me to RELAX. Today is a new day. I pray that you would open doors today and help me to accomplish what I need to accomplish, and let go of what I don't. Amen."
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Hold the Phone!!
Life is such a mystery. My phone quit last night. I have a Razor, it has held up really well, and I actually didn't see it coming. Here is a short list of reasons why not having my phone is BAD right now.
1. I'm dangerously pregnant and shouldn't go anywhere alone
2. Bryan is in N.Y. and the house phone doesn't have long distance
3. Bryan is in N.Y. and T-Mobile probably won't replace the phone with out his signature
4. All my phone numbers were in the phone
5. It's almost Christmas and I wasn't planning on spending money on a new phone right now (especially since I was planning on forking out money for an upgrade after the holidays)
6. I woke up with contractions this am and I am taking the kids to a birthday party, and if something happens on the freeway Aiden will have to deliver the baby (hahahaha, probably not) Catch!
So yeah, that's my rant this morning. I attempted to make myself a peppermint mocha at home this morning. I should have just run to Starbucks. Lattes are never the same from home.
I spent the whole day cleaning and acting like a looney yesterday. I wasn't as sad about Bry being gone as I anticipated (thank you, I know several of you prayed for me). I also decided that if Lucy wants to come out this week while Bry is gone it would be okay, I'm the one who does all the work anyway :) And the other bonus is I get to watch all the chick flicks I want and I don't have to share the bed or pillows (I used 5 last night).
Adios from Crazyville.
1. I'm dangerously pregnant and shouldn't go anywhere alone
2. Bryan is in N.Y. and the house phone doesn't have long distance
3. Bryan is in N.Y. and T-Mobile probably won't replace the phone with out his signature
4. All my phone numbers were in the phone
5. It's almost Christmas and I wasn't planning on spending money on a new phone right now (especially since I was planning on forking out money for an upgrade after the holidays)
6. I woke up with contractions this am and I am taking the kids to a birthday party, and if something happens on the freeway Aiden will have to deliver the baby (hahahaha, probably not) Catch!
So yeah, that's my rant this morning. I attempted to make myself a peppermint mocha at home this morning. I should have just run to Starbucks. Lattes are never the same from home.
I spent the whole day cleaning and acting like a looney yesterday. I wasn't as sad about Bry being gone as I anticipated (thank you, I know several of you prayed for me). I also decided that if Lucy wants to come out this week while Bry is gone it would be okay, I'm the one who does all the work anyway :) And the other bonus is I get to watch all the chick flicks I want and I don't have to share the bed or pillows (I used 5 last night).
Adios from Crazyville.
Friday, December 5, 2008
The Drug Addict and the Shopping Addict
So I'm really posting because it is part of my effort to keep busy this morning. I just got back from dropping Bryan off at the airport :(
Anyway, so I actually have a short "Aiden Anecdote" to share from yesterday. Bryan was home so he got Aiden off the bus for me after school. When they came in the door Bryan was laughing hysterically. "Go tell your mom what you just told me," he ordered.
"What happened?" I asked Aiden. As he approached me I noticed something green all over his hands and nose.
"We had smelly markers, but they gave me a headache."
On closer inspection I noticed the inside of Aiden's nose was actually "Sour Apple Green".
I didn't laugh (until later).
We considered re-hab, but apparently he learned his lesson.
So today I am considering all kinds of ways to keep busy, most of which include some kind of therapeutic shopping.However I just took Bryan to buy some really nice new dress clothes for his trip, so I probably shouldn't, but the female shopping disease will probably win. A new sweater and some fuzzy house slippers would probably make me feel better ;)
Anyway, so I actually have a short "Aiden Anecdote" to share from yesterday. Bryan was home so he got Aiden off the bus for me after school. When they came in the door Bryan was laughing hysterically. "Go tell your mom what you just told me," he ordered.
"What happened?" I asked Aiden. As he approached me I noticed something green all over his hands and nose.
"We had smelly markers, but they gave me a headache."
On closer inspection I noticed the inside of Aiden's nose was actually "Sour Apple Green".
I didn't laugh (until later).
We considered re-hab, but apparently he learned his lesson.
So today I am considering all kinds of ways to keep busy, most of which include some kind of therapeutic shopping.However I just took Bryan to buy some really nice new dress clothes for his trip, so I probably shouldn't, but the female shopping disease will probably win. A new sweater and some fuzzy house slippers would probably make me feel better ;)
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I've been up since 4:44
I am such a wreck today. Poor Keren gets to hear me whine for a couple hours this morning. Hopefully after a latte I will be in a better mood.
In my defense I must say it is all hormones fault. I am not usually a tearful, fretful, or whiney type. But I have been having these OUTRAGEOUS mood swings. Yesterday at bible study we watched a video taught by Beth Moore, whom I really enjoy. I actually got up and left because she was yelling. If you have ever seen her teach you know what I mean. She gets really into it, I grew up in Texas so I understand her style. But yesterday I wanted to run for cover. My small group looked at me like I was CRAZY when I came back, and my only explanation was "she was yelling".
So anyway. Bryan has tomorrow off and then he takes off for the Big Apple. I am so nervous about him being gone. I'm really sick of being pregnant, but I am HORRIFIED of having the baby without him here. I think I would be damaged forever. I can't think of another person who I would let in the delivery room with me, I only want him. Let me put it this way; we've been through some "stuff" together and he is seriously like my security blanket. My Achilles heel. He always stays with me in recovery too. We even sleep in the tiny hospital bed together.
So anyway, the pressure to stay pregnant for 2 more weeks is on (that's kind of a long time)He comes back the 12th (hopefully).
((sigh)) "what's for breakfast?"
"Lord help me to have more courage. I know that I should be enjoying so many blessings right now, but instead I am full of doubt. Help me to meet this test with belief instead of unbelief. You already know what the next step should be. PLEASE protect my husband. I ask this every morning when he leaves for work, and I will probably never stop doing this, but please let it be because I trust you with his life and not because I think I need to remind you about him. Please fill this day with unexpected blessings for my family, and my friends. Amen."
In my defense I must say it is all hormones fault. I am not usually a tearful, fretful, or whiney type. But I have been having these OUTRAGEOUS mood swings. Yesterday at bible study we watched a video taught by Beth Moore, whom I really enjoy. I actually got up and left because she was yelling. If you have ever seen her teach you know what I mean. She gets really into it, I grew up in Texas so I understand her style. But yesterday I wanted to run for cover. My small group looked at me like I was CRAZY when I came back, and my only explanation was "she was yelling".
So anyway. Bryan has tomorrow off and then he takes off for the Big Apple. I am so nervous about him being gone. I'm really sick of being pregnant, but I am HORRIFIED of having the baby without him here. I think I would be damaged forever. I can't think of another person who I would let in the delivery room with me, I only want him. Let me put it this way; we've been through some "stuff" together and he is seriously like my security blanket. My Achilles heel. He always stays with me in recovery too. We even sleep in the tiny hospital bed together.
So anyway, the pressure to stay pregnant for 2 more weeks is on (that's kind of a long time)He comes back the 12th (hopefully).
((sigh)) "what's for breakfast?"
"Lord help me to have more courage. I know that I should be enjoying so many blessings right now, but instead I am full of doubt. Help me to meet this test with belief instead of unbelief. You already know what the next step should be. PLEASE protect my husband. I ask this every morning when he leaves for work, and I will probably never stop doing this, but please let it be because I trust you with his life and not because I think I need to remind you about him. Please fill this day with unexpected blessings for my family, and my friends. Amen."
Monday, December 1, 2008
Family Picture
I'm editing this picture for our Christmas cards, but I'm only committing to sending cards to family this year because I sorta have enough going on as is. So here it is, we just had my mom take a couple pics on Thanksgiving. I still need to take some nice pics of the boys. Anyway, I think it turned out pretty well other than Aiden's cheese face. I've always had a hard time getting him to understand how to smile when we take a picture.
Speaking of Aiden, I am so glad he is heading back to school today. Not because I didn't love having him around last week, but the change in his routine made him CRAZY! He wasn't really functioning very well the past couple days. So getting back to school is just what he needs today.
I on the other hand have several things I want/need to do today, and I am worried the big belly is going to slow me down. Last time I went to our storage unit to find something I think I made the manager so nervous. He kept walking by to make sure I was okay. But at this point I'm like "hey, what's the worst that could happen, I go into labor?" So yeah, wish me luck. I'm trying to find some of the Christmas decorations. Yikes.
My other plan for the day is to go to the Super Mall. I haven't been there in a while.
Does anyone know anything about the new GoBebe store in Sumner/Puyallup off Main? I drove past it the other day. I don't want to waste my time if it's one of those "we'll design your expensive nursery for you" stores.
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